Well, okay then! Let’s see if I can actually write and finish a blog today! I’m working by myself, my co-worker went to visit her family in Indiana so I may not get to finish today in less than 1000 words but I’ll try!
SO! I still have a boyfriend, Stud. He and I both have trust issues so we have had a hard month together but I think if we can get through this past month, we are good to go! We have pissed each other off, both of us gone running to our ex’s (nothing happened with engineer but he wants me too!), both did legal and illegal fun things together, I ALMOST kicked him out because I actually listened to engineer for about 2 minutes, and yeah, other crap.
ANYWAY…I am el brokola. I mean broke as shit! I have carried Stud this month because of his pay being screwed up but I told him I can’t do it anymore. He is supposed to get paid on Friday and give me half of it. I guess we’ll see! If not, he knows he has to go stay with someone else which would really hurt our relationship but I can’t support him! PLUS…
OMG. You would NOT believe it. My friend Bartman hit on me today! So wait. Yes, I am saying this. I can’t believe it myself. Not only do I have Stud, Engineer wants me, Bartman wants me, and I am STILL going to see Arizona next month! PLUS Arizona got his own place and told me to cancel my hotel and I can stay with him. Really? He said he has a twin bed that I can sleep on. So geez! Get a boyfriend and the rest come out of the woodwork! But Bartman??? He’s the one that said he was too old for me (only 9 years older but that’s out of my 5 year dating range). And NOW he says that he has rethought that and I should try it. WTH??? OMG!!! I was going to go help him fix his computer this weekend since he got hacked and we were going to go to dinner but now I don’t think I can! I don’t think Stud would appreciate that! Stud already told me that I have too many boyfriends. I replied that I have ONE boyfriend and many boy / friends. He said it doesn’t matter…it’s too many boyfriends. He gets a bit jealous. When he saw engineer sitting with me outside my house he froze up. When I told him that he really should move out (because of the illegal things we did that weekend that engineer did NOT like AT ALL), he said I was cold. I didn’t want him to leave, I did want him to not do anything stupid that could cause his problems with me or with the law. That being said, he hasn’t done anything illegal since last Sunday. I already told him that the first time he does, he’s out and he said he understands and that it’s a good idea. But then again, words are just words. I am waiting to see what the actions are. I don’t want engineer back. I kissed him last Sunday and, don’t get me wrong, I love that, but I was thinking of Stud at the same time. I wanted to be with him but I was hurt because he just left and took off for his ex’s. He said he was going to see his son but she picked him up. Yeah, ok, sure! Whatever! That’s why I called my friend and then took him and Little Man over to engineer’s. We had a fish barbeque (engineer had caught a redfish that was HUGE), and had fun. So yeah.
NOW…I need to upload the Boston pictures I know. It’s been weeks! I think I have other pictures as well. Engineer keeps sending me dirty pictures of himself via text but I won’t share those! I delete them when I get them. I’m just not into that kind of stuff. I don’t have many pictures after Boston either..I just looked. Just one of Stud laying in my lap and of engineer and his daughter that engineer’s MOTHER sent me!!! His mother loves me, God help me! He tells me to call her Mom and then when I do, his Mom tells him not to rush into a new relationship. Whoa there, THAT’S not going to happen! I already HAVE a relationship with someone! Speaking of that, I asked Stud if I could change my relationship status on FB and put down his name and he says, Not until the divorce is final. Well, that’s fine but you haven’t even filled out the damn paperwork to GET a divorce! Geez! BUT… Bartman has his own business that he succeeds at, his own apartment building and place (which needs a HARD cleaning – bachelors – what are you gonna do?), and 2 cars. AND…Arizona has his own place, his own truck, and is in school to better himself. Engineer has his own place, his own old SUV, a good job (he makes a decent salary even though he bitches about it constantly), and a daughter. Stud on the other hand is living with me, has no vehicle, has 6 kids, and works whenever he can wherever he can. But I don’t want to let him go because he’s a “nice” guy who treats me well and is clean and sweet. Yeah, I know, I would dump him but I love him. I don’t love any of the others. I THOUGHT I loved engineer but it was all lust (I still have that – I just keep thinking of Stud when I’m near him). Arizona I have always liked but he’s in another state and doesn’t want a relationship. Bartman, well, he’s Bartman. A 49 year old bachelor. You do NOT want to see his apartment. GROSS. He has to clear a chair when I come visit him. Eww!
So that’s 1000 words so I’ll stop for now. Here’s the pictures!!!