It was a really nice day. I had Little Man stay with my parents last night so I could get some good sleep. I may have only slept 6 hours, but it was GREAT!!!
When I woke up, I weighed myself. I lost .8 pounds to put me at exactly 205. I’ve been sick this week but not sick enough to miss work or anything. I’ve been passing out by 9pm and waking around 4am. That’s not cool but I made it. What I can’t figure out is how I lost anything! I seriously thought I was going to gain at least 3 pounds because I went over my calories 5 times in the last week! Mostly eating big, high calorie breakfasts, but tons of cookies (homemade) and drinking WAY too much soda. I went over by almost 900 calories on some days. Always early in the day though which is probably better but still! So I figure I better stop before I really DO gain lots of weight. Granted I worked out twice this week but it rained all the other days so I didn’t do much. My friend said it may be because I was sick or because I have raised my metabolism. I think I am just lucky and better not continue it.
My sister up north text me and asked me for my address. I’m not crazy enough for any of them to know where I live so I gave them my parents address. My parents were pissed though! I understand but I really don’t think she is going to drive 12 hours and just show up at their door but if she does, they are going to call me. She said she wants to send me my bio-moms ashes. That’s 2 sisters that have said that! What’s up with that? Anyone know? I don’t even have my grandparents ashes, they are both buried where they wanted. I won’t have my parents either, they have places for their urns. Kinda weird to me but EX has his Dad’s so I guess it’s a thing for some people.
One of my single mom friends was short on funds but her son was turning 11. I love her kid so I asked if we could throw him a surprise pool party at my house. She said that was great. I ordered the cake from Baskin Robbins, an Oreo ice cream cake. It was SO good but so rich I couldn’t finish my piece!
We swam before and after cake. The kids had a great time and I really enjoyed hanging out with her friends, they are all really nice! Everyone is so amazed that my simple plan has worked this well and are willing to try it. Yay! The kids are all burnt now though. They didn’t put sunscreen on until after they were in the pool and then they jumped right back in. Crazy kids!
I got him a $25 toys r us gift card, the cake, plus a veggie tray and 2 cheese/meat trays with crackers. All the cheese is gone, most of the veggies, but EX has plenty of meat pieces to eat during the week. Total spent $100. Best $100 I’ve spent in a while! It doesn’t hurt that she was really appreciative of everything even though I refuse to tell her how much things cost. I wanted to do something great for her son that he would remember and I did! He was so surprised! The look of confusion on his face is priceless!
So everyone was swam, they even did a conga line at one point.
So that was my tiring day. I have 9000 steps already and it’s only 7pm. I’m watching Transformers with EX. I told him that when I go to Kansas, I’m going to steal his Chiefs jersey so I fit in up there and he said NO! I warned him though! I’ll just take it with me when I leave, he’ll find out when I get back.
Tomorrow is cooking and cleaning day. I went grocery shopping during lunch at work on Friday so I’m done there. I still need snacks for Little Man when he gets home from school but I’m thinking fruits and veggies to see just how hungry he really is. We shall see!
I also wanted to admit something to you guys. I am depressed. I take my medicine daily but I still have days that nothing helps. I have felt like this for a few days. When the party was over today, I fell into major depressive state. SO, I took a pill. I’m hoping it helps because all I want to do is run away. Last night when I got home from dropping Little Man at my parents, I told Arizona that if I had money, I would come there to see him. He didn’t know how depressed I was. His reply was, “I would love if you were able to come see me and the family” Umm, totally NOT what I meant! But I’ll take what I can get with him for now. I know how much he cares about me, he wants his family to agree with it too I guess. His sister in law wants us together as does his friend here in Houston. I miss him a lot. I hope that he and I can be together when he graduates. This is getting more difficult day by day. It doesn’t help my depression either.
Okay, I’ve told you guys about my week and what’s going on this week. I’m out! Hugs!