So yesterday was a crazy day. I was awake at 5:30am (yes on a Saturday). I left my house at 6:30 to drive down to my brothers house to pick their family up. We left their house at 7:30 and drove back to my house. So I was driving for over an hour and a half! We stopped and got Dunkin Donuts (doughnuts and juice for 8) on the way home because Little Man asked for it and was very sweet about it.

I gave them an old phone of mine that I always hated but Sprint didn’t want back when I went to an iPhone. I just don’t have a charger for it! So we hung out here for a couple of hours, then my sister in law and I drove down to Harwin St. where you can pretty much find anything you are in need of. The first place we stopped had a charger for it and sold it to me for $10. I paid for it because I wasn’t going to give them a phone and make them buy a charger!

She and I came back and packed into EX’s suburban and drove to Battleship Texas in LaPorte. We stopped at Sonic for lunch where I realized how happy I am to not have a big family. $37 later, we had all eaten and had drinks and off we went once again. I bought our tickets at the ship ($48). We walked all over and even went down to the 3rd deck (the most bottom we are allowed) and halfway to the top of the ship (SO many f’ing stairs!). We had a blast! We all got separated too because we were going around at different speeds. Somehow I ended up with the 2 boys (both with ADHD) and kept up pretty well! We just text each other so we could keep in touch (great cell service on the ship, even in the bottom!). Took tons of pics and even a couple of selfies. On the way down some steep steps, I fell the last 2 steps because my knee gave out. It is a very nice scrape but it’s fine. Helps me prove to Little Man that you can get hurt and keep going.

Then we wanted to go to the monument. So sister in law and I said we were going to walk for some exercise. The Little Man said he was coming because he wanted to be with his mommy. That made their 7 year old boy want to come with us. So she and I had the boys and trudged through the wild to the lake and walked next to it down to the monument while the men drove around. I happened to look down at the ground and saw a hole. I was about to step on it to keep going when I saw a head start coming out. When I saw a snake, I ran away! Then sister in law says “Oh! Is that what those holes are?” A few minutes later, we are going through some really high weeds and she heard something in the grass and took off running. I asked her when she started and she told me and that made me run again! We finally caught up to our little stinkers and walked up a bunch of stairs to get to the monument. So then we sat down and drank some water and waited for the men. I guess having to strap a baby and a 2 year old in was harder than just walking. They said they drove around to look at stuff too. Yeah, ok. Sssssuuuurrrreeee! :)

So we walk in to the monument. They have a museum and an elevator to the lookout point. Well, since nothing ever seems to be free, I paid $22 for all of us to take the elevator to the top. We got up there and the view was worth the $4 each! Great views of 3 different sides of the city.

Then we piled back in the suburban and drove back to my place. I was so worn out that I pretty much stayed away from everyone for a while. A couple hours later, I made spaghetti for dinner for everyone. It was completely gone in about 10 minutes and I didn’t get any! Then we left at 7:30pm to drive them back home. Got home at 9:30pm where Little Man was sitting on the couch watching a movie on TV and whining while EX was passed out on the couch. So I got Little Man in bed, put a blanket on EX, then climbed into bed and passed out during the movie.

This morning when I woke up, my thighs hurt like hell and I’m very tired! I still baked food for the week, did the dishes, and did laundry. Yep, that’s me! Enjoy the pictures, I took tons but showing you guys the best ones!








I’m SO not complaining!


Yesterday, I only went 9 calories over. The day before that, 233 calories over. The day before that, I went 936 calories over! BUT… I have been walking around my company’s parking garage anytime I get a break. So my steps are doing well plus having 10 minutes of exercise at a time about 4 times a day. But that loss is awesome no matter how I got it done. I’m 6.8 pounds from my next goal. Now when I am under 200 pounds, what should I get myself? I need ideas! I need to measure myself again too to check on that. I’ll try to get that done this weekend.

I went to my doctor yesterday. She said I’m probably fighting some virus and if I get worse, I need to come in for antibiotics. I try not to take meds I don’t need and she knows that so she didn’t put me on anything extra yet. Also, she was having a hard time finding an antibiotic that doesn’t affect Celexa. I guess I should say that the Celexa is working well for me. I haven’t had an anxiety attack in a while and I’ve been dealing with a lot! I haven’t broken completely down although there are still days that I don’t feel like doing anything but I still make myself do them and that’s what makes me know that the meds work because before, I would call in and curl up. Now I’m still doing what I have to do!

EX is up so I’m up as well. He’s in the kitchen making his lunch. He leaves for work at 6am so that’s helping me get up on time to go work out although I haven’t done it in a while. I was doing so well too. I’m still going as you can tell, I am scared of not doing more and gaining weight back. I never want to be over 200 again! Anyway, amazingly enough, he and I are still getting along great. He pays me to stay on the couch, he has his own food, plus my son has his father around. Why couldn’t I have done this years ago? Oh yeah, I wasn’t over him. About 5 years ago, when drinking, I would hit on him! It really took me a long time to get over him. Those 4 years with engineer helped me with that. Now I’m able to share space with him and even when drinking, I just think of Arizona. So everything works well!

Am I rambling? I feel like I am. I gotta go get ready for Friday so have a great day! Hugs!

What’s today?

It’s been such a crazy week, I forgot what day of the week it is! I’ve been working on finishing up this meeting at work (Well, trying to), plus helping Little Man with his schoolwork, and trying to clean a little each day since my brother is coming over on Saturday. I really think I’m coming down with something though! I have been sleeping a lot more, I have had no problems falling asleep (usually takes an hour, now it’s about 10 minutes), stuffy nose and cough. And did I mention how I haven’t been able to get up in the mornings? That’s taking about an hour even after sleeping more than normal!

For shits and giggles, I decided to weigh myself this morning. I’ve gone over my calories for 2 days in a row (like 300 over, eek!). So, how do I weigh 207??? That’s 1. something less! I’ll take it, don’t get me wrong! I’m just amazed. I haven’t been working out although every time I get a break at work, I’ve been walking around the garage to make sure I get my steps in daily. But I know that won’t last so I’m trying to get back in the groove. I have been drinking more caffeine the past few days just trying to stay awake and wake up in the mornings. I almost fell asleep at work yesterday and that was after drinking an energy drink! I have a doc appointment today that includes blood work so maybe they can figure out what’s going on.

So that’s it on the weight front. I have family news too. I spoke with my step father yesterday (my siblings father). He gave me a name of a guy that might be able to tell me who my biological father is. I’m trying to get a hold of my biological grandparents but they have an unlisted number and I can’t find anything about them online. So I’m still trying to figure that out. He did tell me that cancer doesn’t run in my family, she got cancer from everything she did to herself. The only things in my family are exactly what I have, asthma and obesity.

Have a great day! Hugs! I’m still lost on what day it is today, it’s Thursday, right?

I’ve been slacking

I have been totally lacking in motivation to get off my arse and go walk and do my plan. I said it last week too. I still was yesterday. So many changes in my life. Having EX move in. Meeting my siblings. Moving my offices. Anxiety, depression, the list could go on and on. I’ve stayed close to my daily calories but still go over because I have been drinking more soda lately and eating junk foods.

But! Last night, I finally told Arizona that the reason I’m not out looking for anyone to date is that I want to see how we could be after he graduates. Then I asked if that was crazy since it won’t be for more than a year from now. And you know what he said? He said I’m not crazy! He feels the same! I’ve been all smiles since. And sleep? Forget it! I was up an hour ago (4am) and ready to move once I saw that reply.

So I am basically starting over. I took the dog out. I weigh 208.4. I have 9.6 pounds until my goal of 199. My next goal after that will be where I want to be at 175. I need to be able to walk 8 miles by April of 2015. There’s this 8 mile hike through the Grand Canyon that I really want to go with Arizona when we go on vacation next year and if I can’t even walk 3 miles, there’s no way I can do that hike! I’m really needing motivating words from you guys. I need more sleep too.

The cub scouts did our annual car wash on Saturday. While EX took Little Man to that, I met another of my sisters. She is very sweet, but has to take 12 pills a day to suppress the urge to do meth and to overcome her anxiety and depression. That’s scary! It could have been me too. But I loved her family, we talked for about 3 hours, then I made up an excuse to go home. All we were doing was watching cartoons with the kids with an occasional chat during commercials. I can’t sit still that long!


The car wash went okay. Then EX took Him to the dentist where he has 6 cavities! They still cleaned his teeth though, thank God! My insurance company says after the age of 6, the kid needs to go to a regular dentist and won’t cover a pediatric specialist. WTF??? That’s ridiculous so I have to call them and complain today.





Have a good Monday. I’m going to try and sleep for an hour before I have to get up and get moving for work. Hugs!

I know…

It’s been a few days. But I have a great excuse! I’ve been busy as hell! Work is crazy, home is nuts, and my brain has been so fried all I want to do is sleep when I’m at home.

I mean, after meeting my little brother and his family, what else could be better? I am staying on my plan. Little Man and I walk to school at least 3 times a week and he walks home every day unless it’s raining. We are getting our exercise! EX has been helping immensely with Little Man although I feel like I am always doing dishes and taking out trash! I just did the dishes on Monday and the sink is full again, both sides of it! And trash, omg, I take it out 3 times a week and I only used to do it once a week.

Anyway, I’m just working my ass off but doing my best to stay on track. Have a good Friday and I’ll write this weekend. My schizo sister says she’s coming to meet me this weekend. I’ll keep y’all posted! Hugs!

Labor Day holiday?

Hmm, being a mom, this doesn’t feel like a holiday! I have to do some work today, I have to get the grocery shopping done, cleaning the house, and do the cooking for the week. So I’m letting EX take Little Man wherever he wants today. I don’t even know if the stores are open. I stayed up until 2am watching Netflix and then Little Man woke me up at 7am. I’m tired! And I’m out of Full Throttle so I dont know how I’m going to wake up and get moving!

As for yesterday, I met and I LOVE my little brother! All the time growing up, I always thought I had a twin brother. Well, he and I look a lot alike, we are just 14 years apart.


AND, Little Man and his cousin have the same face.


Oh, this is the best part! My Mom wanted me to have a little girl that she could dress up and stuff but she got stuck with Little Man and since I refuse to have more, she said she will never get to do what she wanted. Well, I met my mini me yesterday. We looked at pictures from me when I was little and oh yeah, she was identical!


So it was a great day. We went to church, then all 7 of us piled in my car and drove to Chuck E Cheese. I spent $50 on all of us to eat and the kids to play. I love it there! Everyone had fun, and I really enjoyed hanging out with them. I can’t wait to see them again. They need a car though. 7 people in my tiny car was interesting. EX said he didn’t want a bunch of people he doesn’t know in his suburban so I couldn’t drive that. So today I told him about how we all piled in and he asked when I got a clown car. Smartass!

So I guess I should wake my happy butt up and get dressed so I can go shopping for the next 2 weeks. Have a great day!


Did it!

I walked 3.2 miles in one hour! Now if I could run that, I’d be ready for a 5K!

It’s 9:05 am and I already walked this many steps today!

That is my one hour walk. I am proud of myself this morning! The balls of my feet hurt but I got back out there!

Have a good day! I need a shower and get moving for all the stuff I have to get done today!