I couldn’t sleep last night because I was thinking a lot about my decision.
I am glad I ended things. He was a very nice guy but he was draining my finances and I didn’t want to have him around.
Valentine’s Day: he got free tickets to Alice Cooper. That’s fine, I’ll take free! Once we get there, I told him I was buying a shirt. That was $30. Then I wanted a drink. Did he offer to get me one? No! He said, “Great, can I get one too?” So that was $20. I wanted more drinks so I had to go get them. Now he did drive us downtown to the concert and found a free space to park in. Then it was still early so we went to my pub that I like to go to on occasion. He again, didn’t offer to pay, more like he expected me to! So I spent $40 at the bar.
He was spending every weekend at my house. He ate my food, drank a LOT of soda, don’t forget all the beer he drank, and never offered to give me anything to help me out with the food bill. If we went out, I had to pay for whatever we did.
Rodeo carnival day: I had already spent $75 before we even went. $25 to get all 3 of us in and a $50 pack of tickets and food coupons. I let him use some coupons for rides but mostly Little Man rode. We all went on the Ferris wheel as well. Once the tickets were gone (after only an hour), Little Man wanted ice cream. He went looking at cowboy hats and said $35 was a bit too steep and looked at me like I would buy him one. I didn’t. Then he’s hungry. I give him the food coupons and say great, me too! Then he asks me for money to pay with. Ok, this was my idea, fine. I gave him my last $13 thinking he would come back with enough for both of us. He came back with a turkey leg and a drink. WTF? He said those cost the entire $13 and he didn’t use the coupon. So I’m out of cash, no food, but he’s happy. I had to go to an atm, pull out cash so I could eat and Little Man could try to win this stuffed Pokemon. So, after that, we left. We had only been there 2 hours. I spent a total of $175 for that day. That’s more than one weeks paycheck!
2 days later, I ask him if he wants to go to a job fair with me. I send him the link to it which shows what companies are coming and the times. He says yes. I tell him to update his resume and be at my house by 8 so we can be there on time. I text him at 6:30am and he says he will be on his way. He shows up at 8:30 and hasn’t done his resume! So I turn on my computer, pull up my resume, and say you can change the information. That takes him an hour so I’m already late, and then he saves the document without changing the name so my resume is now gone! I’m pissed at this point but had copies of mine printed so I say let’s go. I drive over, sign in, and start going and talking to companies. I see him not 10 minutes later just walking around. I ask him what’s up and he says that there are no companies he’s interested in talking to. Out of 16 companies??? So he tells me he is more of a blue collar worker. I’m so mad at this point that I tell him that my EX is a blue collar worker, boyfriend works in a cafeteria at a school. Totally different. I had to go to work after going home, changing, and applying at the companies that I talked to. And don’t forget, I had to rebuild my resume first! So I ask him if there’s anything at home he needs to do and he says no, I’ll just hang out here and wait for you to get home. I didn’t want him there and figured it was a good time to see how far this jumping at his ex’s command goes. I text his ex and asked her to get him out if my house. Within 15 minutes of her getting my message, he texts and says he has to go. I was glad to get him out of my house but mad that when she says jump, he says how high.
So the past 2 weekends, I have been dealing with him at my house. I already said how steak and BJ day went. He didn’t even catch on that I was watching tv. That was the only time in 2 weeks that we’ve had sex. I haven’t wanted it. At first I thought it was because of the depo shot but now I know that I was already done with him and wanted him out of my life. If he had offered to buy dinner or something just ONCE, I might have changed my mind but I doubt it.
This is not all that happened. Those are just the main instances that stick out in my mind.
But now of course I am alone again which freaks me out. I think that’s why I hung on to him as long as I did. I have a hard time being alone. That’s why I stuck to engineer for 4 years even though he made me cry multiple times. I cried yesterday but it wasn’t about him, it was that I couldn’t even make that work so how will I make anything work? At least I’m not contacting engineer or any of my other ex’s. I don’t want them either. I’m just going to have to be alone again for a while.
I’m sitting at jury duty now. I do not want to be here and I’m praying I don’t get picked. This place is crazy! There are 4 rooms full of people that had to take time off work in order to sit here and wait. I don’t get paid for today either which sucks ass.
Anyway, guess I’m going to read. Have a good Monday! Hugs!